I'm very happy that I finally finished my elven amazone. Taking up to 3 months for one illustration was really something new for me. Ok, screen recording the whole thing at the same time might have had something to do with it, but that's not an excuse.
From time to time I have certain phases where I'm overly motivated and just throw out one illustration after another, while during other periods, I somehow freeze.
I was never really able to explain it to myself; it's not a real block or something. The things I do on a commercial basis always come first and I always get them done. But for my personal stuff... I don't really know how to describe the feeling I sometimes have. I love very much what I do, I always did. But it doesn't change the fact that sometimes there is something like an invisible hand that holds me back. I know I have a very mild form of bipolar disorder but as far as I'm concerned, I think everyone has a form of that. We are all forced to wear masks during certain parts of our lives, so it can become quite difficult to stay on top of things every now and then.
However, I promised myself to work out something like a weekly plan of what to do on each day. It will not be my personal bible that I need to follow every single day; I need to be able to keep spontaine. It's more something like a travelling map; it helps you to see things, but you're allowed to stroll besides the way. In my head, it's already what I do since a while and I feel things getting better that way.
I'm also open for any kind of commission works, so if someone is interested, please let me know. But I will expand on that in the next few weeks anyway. Ok, now I should get back to my video material, because there are still some hours of footage to edit^^
I wish you all a nice weekend.